Monday, Nov. 01, 2010 - 10:25 p.m.

Being a step-mom to a girl who's real mother was never actually in the picture in any real sense is difficult. I love this little girl so much. I find so much happiness and joy in every aspect of life with her as I do frustration and separation anxiety from the intimacy I had grown so very accustomed to with my fiance(to be).

I want to make it all work. Then, there are financial woes that have a few possible lights at the end of the tunnel...I just hope all of them don't go out. Maybe, with luck, all of them will get brighter and we will have the good fortune of picking what we want most for our family's betterment.

As for now, I feel lucky in the "drama" department. All my friends have so much bullshit going on in their lives; complete and total upheaval. If you have ever been a reader of my journal since it started, or are now beginning from the start, you will see I've paid my dues and feel that this time of non-dramatic time is long overdue. FUCK drama. I FUCKING HATE IT.

I'd write more but have other things at my call right now. More later.

Namaste

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